Disciple, missing the point spectacularly is going to be part of your process. Sorry about that.
Pete, James, Johnny and the gang went through this on numerous occasions as they followed the Master. “Are you still so dull?” He wondered aloud, more than once.
A group of seasoned disciples is only made up of those who have spectacularly missed the point on several occasions in their past, and may currently be doing so now.
Welcome to the club.